At the last all-staff meeting held at work, the facilitator asked us to take a selfie – not posed, but as natural as possible while saying something to the person sitting next to us.  It was awkward – not gonna lie.Kerry

Then, he posed a question to us.  “What is ONE word that you would use to caption that selfie – one word only that best describes what you hope that people see when they look at you?”  I really had to think about it.  Many words flashed across the screen of my mind’s eye, but none that I could really feel solid about, until one.  Purpose.  I want my life to signify something meaningful and I do that by sharing my experience, strength and hope.

I’ve shared my story with many people over the past 5 or so years, to audiences of 200 or more and many times with just one person over a cup of coffee.  I’ve been through some life (as most have) and am a work in progress to heal from those wounds.  The exhaustive list of hurts, habits or hang-ups is longer, but here’s a quick summary:

  • abuse
  • infidelity
  • divorce
  • thyroid cancer
  • toxic shame
  • depression
  • anxiety
  • codependency
  • anger
  • resentment
  • grief
  • stress
  • burn-out

This list is not meant to make anyone feel BAD, or SORRY for me.  Quite the opposite.  I know, that my story has a purpose and despite all the really ugly stuff, I know that my pain is NOT without purpose.  At this point in my life, I am actually very grateful for the past and its purpose – to share my experience, to offer others hope that they too can come out the other side of really tough stuff with victorious joy and freedom!  I know its possible because it is true in my life.

My life now is full of joy, contentment, and peace, happiness and acceptance – I’m victorious and free!  Everything I have been through, the pain of broken relationships, the inability to manage my own life, and anger that it all culminated in, has been wholly and completely traded in for a life of freedom, joy, peace, serenity, living life on life’s terms, just one day at a time.  Jesus is my Healer and I give all glory to Him for doing in me what I was miserably unable to do for myself.  The work continues, and He is faithful to complete it…

Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you”, says the Lord.  “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” 


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