At the last all-staff meeting held at work, the facilitator asked us to take a selfie – not posed, but as natural as possible while saying something to the person sitting next to us. It was awkward – not gonna lie.
Then, he posed a question to us. “What is ONE word that you would use to caption that selfie – one word only that best describes what you hope that people see when they look at you?” I really had to think about it. Many words flashed across the screen of my mind’s eye, but none that I could really feel solid about, until one. Purpose. I want my life to signify something meaningful and I do that by sharing my experience, strength and hope.
I’ve shared my story with many people over the past 5 or so years, to audiences of 200 or more and many times with just one person over a cup of coffee. I’ve been through some life (as most have) and am a work in progress to heal from those wounds. The exhaustive list of hurts, habits or hang-ups is longer, but here’s a quick summary:
- thyroid cancer
- toxic shame
This list is not meant to make anyone feel BAD, or SORRY for me. Quite the opposite. I know, that my story has a purpose and despite all the really ugly stuff, I know that my pain is NOT without purpose. At this point in my life, I am actually very grateful for the past and its purpose – to share my experience, to offer others hope that they too can come out the other side of really tough stuff with victorious joy and freedom! I know its possible because it is true in my life.
My life now is full of joy, contentment, and peace, happiness and acceptance – I’m victorious and free! Everything I have been through, the pain of broken relationships, the inability to manage my own life, and anger that it all culminated in, has been wholly and completely traded in for a life of freedom, joy, peace, serenity, living life on life’s terms, just one day at a time. Jesus is my Healer and I give all glory to Him for doing in me what I was miserably unable to do for myself. The work continues, and He is faithful to complete it…
Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you”, says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”